A Beautiful Challenge

I need to reconnect with my own spirit. I seem to have turned away for a bit, making plans, making money, putting my foot down and staying concrete for a while in order to manipulate the physical aspects of my life.

In the process, my dreams have slipped back into the gap. My heart has stopped overflowing with gratitude and awe for the things that I have created, and I have stopped actively attracting high vibrations and instead have begun simply longing for them again, which I know is a vicious cycle that leads to a life filled with nothing but longing for something better.

I know that I am complete. I do not need something better. I have everything in my life to keep me happy, strong and whole. It seems that I sometimes forget about that inner fire and it hides itself, not wanting to be presumptuous. The fire needs stoking again. It will never be extinguished, but if I forget to stoke the fire I don’t feel the heat or see the beauty rise up within and around me.  The embers glow inside, always, but who has time to pay attention to embers with so much distraction going on?

I know where my truth lives, and it has nothing to do with a marriage or a lover. It has nothing to do with a puppy or a writing career.  It has only to do with the moment, and the magic of gratitude that spreads throughout all of my actions and interactions as long as I remember to let it.  Remembering gratitude and humility, all else falls neatly into place.

Living my life in awareness of my deeper nature is what truly brings me closer to the life that I want to live. How easy it is to forget that. What a beautiful challenge it is to allow myself to actively remember it.