A Moon Full Of Questions

July 6 2009

Full moon in Capricorn.

Today, I stepped outside of illusion, finally having realized that everything that we have ever been told is skewed at best and more likely than not, outright lies. On the one hand I feel powerless to control or even comprehend the depth which we are fooled and duped, from flouride in the water and mercury in our teeth to vaccinations and genetically altered food, global warming lies, terrorist cover ups, and FDA monopolizing, now I find out that it is very likely that the moon is teeming with life and we have been lied to all of these years about what we know about what really exists on the surface of the moon. This is just getting out, but like everything else, has been being leaked slowly for decades. The more searching I do, the more I stumble across.

Tonight as the full moon in Capricorn rises outside in my front yard, I go out to look at it and I think to myself all of the ways that it is significant to my life that the moon is inhabited, if indeed it is so. Today I watched some compelling video by a man named Jose Escamilla and his video is called Moon Rising. Its on YouTube. In it, he documents hundreds even thousands of photographs that have been covered up, doctored and otherwise altered for public viewing  and photos that appear to clearly show the existence of domes and crafts on the surface of a beautiful, colorful moon. Those photos are compelling, shocking and significant in so many ways. And would I really put it past them to lie to us about it after they have deceived us in so many other ways? Everything is a fucking conspiracy! So why is that? Why would they keep us in the dark about it? Are the beings on the moon the E.T.s of our experience, much closer than ever anticipated? Are they benevolent? It is doubtful after hearing some stories of abductees. 

What is really going on here?  Cities and structures? Total inhabitation? Is it true and what if it is?  What vision should I be holding for this? How should I be approaching this realization, that  every night as the moon passes overhead, countless faces have been looking out across millions of miles, pondering our existence, or perhaps even shaping it in some ways? What are we to know?  

The moon is the only distant place that we can actually look at from our vantage point on the earth. We can’t see Pittsburgh from our backyard unless we live on the outskirts of Pittsburgh. But we can see the moon every day, marking time in our lives, stemming ocean waves and rivers of menstrual blood, patterns of migration and  neuro chemicals in our brains.

This new information asks us to wake up ask ourselves what is really just behind the curtain of our spoon fed reality, and replace it instead with the nourishment of personal awareness and the ability to accept what we find in reality, even if it does not hold up to our feeble representations of it. We have to be able to grow with the task at hand.  As long as we continually strive to awaken and uphold our personal evolution on this planet, we will come to the understandings that we  need to.

We each declare our own way forward. For now, I still have my worries and my ever growing awareness of just how deeply the lies have been perpetuated and I can think of nothing better than to completely escape… to literally drop out of such a dominant civilization as would attempt to control and diminish the worlds population for their own gains and to their own ends.

Something good that I can do, though, is ask light and spiritual love into the universe to bathe every surface and cell, every chord and transmission like a tonic, promising that the highest vibration is emitted that will foster the illumination of the darkness and tyranny which have given us these lies to contend with by covering up the truth from us. If we are to ever change the course of action of the indignities done to us by our predecessors, our leaders, those who we have allowed to come into power, then we must let go of the blame and instead stand up and realize the true potential for understanding and awakening that we DO have.

We can work through our issues here on earth. One moment at a time, the veil is pulled back, and we reveal to ourselves that the very fabric of reality as we know it lies farther down than we usually ever go. But then we go there, and we see that fabric of existence unfolding and the colors and the subtle vibration. We come into contact with entities from the other realms and sometimes other worlds. We wonder where they have come from and why they have chosen to show themselves.

No matter what is going on, it begins right here with me, with you, and we can choose to infuse the situation with the clarity of light and unconditional love. Bringing light to the situation, focusing on creating the best vibration that we possibly can, in the moment,  we arrive at a place that feels like home because we have put it there. It is said that we all have gifts and talents, and that expressing them in our own unique way is the goal of our individual creative lives. Whether we accomplish that in one dynamic way or in a variety of smaller, less enigmatic ways does not matter, as long as we express our aims and create in our lives with awareness. 

Many of us are stuck in limbo, predominantly because we work for a living and what time we have to ourselves we spend in front of a screen of some kind absorbing information. All the while lies are perpetuated and we remain in the dark. It isn’t a place where we can afford to be much longer.  We can only assume that these things are true and work to bring light to their existence.  Are we the  recipients of  the watchful gaze of perhaps millions of beings up there?  Who are they?  How involved is our military? Our Government? The World Governtments? Just as I would never have really assumed that our government was preparing for mass extinction, the evidence that I am seeing is presenting the contrary. 

We can focus our awareness on bringing light and understanding, awareness and energy, into the world and all of its affairs. That is what some of us are good at, unless wee become too bogged down by the shit that we have going on to see it within ourselves, but if you’ve read this far than you are obviously already aware that you have an innate connection with divine universal intelligence and that you can tap in at will to this force and project it, infuse it and create with it.

If you aren’t aware of that, then become aware of it, right now. Feel the life force energy surging through you. This is what we are. However we come to know it matters not, as long as we come to it.  I’m feeling the strong push towards seriously blissing out, for the sake of humanity. Is it wrong to be blissed out? Is it wrong to be accepting? Is there a difference between spiritual love and unconditional love?  Looking into the face of a government that’s full of lies, a government that wants to kill us, and offering the magic of light and spiritual love is not an easy task. 

This is a moment in which the impulsive light of awareness that even those things and people who would be my enemies in this world are flowing with the same energetic infusion of atoms and ether as I am, and we are therefore one and the same, whether we are here or on the moon or in parallel universes or in 900 a.d., we are all infused with the same essence, that force of existence on some level.

So it is with spiritual love, rather than unconditional love that I navigate my life, not as travelling a treacherous sea of enemies who wish to destroy me, but with beauty and grace that I go forth into the ethers, in whatever form and whatever way my human frame will choose to support me, and I infuse the world with light and spiritual love for we are all one beautiful energy, firing off like so many fireflies in an endless field of plantain.

My job is to hold the vision, hold the love and hold the light. I really know and understand that this is my vision. I do know, deep in my spiritual soul, that the true reason that I was born into this incarnation on this planet at this time is to offer healing, growth, energy and spiritual love AS my calling, not in addition to my calling.  I may as well begin living up to it.

Coincidences,  awakenings and opportunities continually surface that remind me that what is most important . Remarkably, it is what is most easily accomplished if we just sort of get out of the way of our intuition and let ourselves move with the flow of the life force within us. Our rigid personalities, our characteristic behaviors, all detract from our connection to source. We spend far too much time being logical and reasoning away the explanations of a world that we are all too familiar with, but just under the hazy atmosphere of which is hidden the vastly disregarded truth, bubbling to the surface for anyone who has eyes to see it.

What are a planet full of peaceful energy beings to do? Infuse it with light! OK, change the legislation, abolish the government, stand up for our rights and don’t let our civil liberties be snatched out from under us without so much as a wink while we remain comatose, media-fed cattle being primed with hormones and vaccines and led to the slaughterhouse blissfully unaware of everything that is going on. Do something! And then do something MORE and Infuse the world with light and spiritual love, which will begin to create the shift to peace that we want to reach. Look around. We do want to reach peace, don’t we?

Summer Solstice is Bringing it On

This weekend is stellar, seriously. Monday’s New Moon in Cancer is also the Summer Solstice, the longest day and shortest night of the year, and an important time of festivity among many different faiths.

 Astrologically, this weekend is looking up to be a comfortable, accepting time, from my perspective, anyway. The grey clouds rolling through darkening the sky are welcome even though they are threatening to rule out a blaze in the fire pit tonight.

I’m opening up to the energy, feeling cleaner, after six days of treating myself with sodium chloride, or MMS, it feels as if I have opened up a new channel of energy, as all of the pathogens are being destroyed and carted out of my system and I’m watching how my body reacts to this process.

All at once, one cup of coffee seems to be enough for me in the morning. I find myself pouring the second one out. What? Me? I can go through four cups easy, normally.

Yesterday I went out into my garden and just started picking lettuce off of the plant, rinsing it in a cup of water, and eating right there.

My body appreciated it, and it was telling me so. This morning I got up and spontaneously stretched, danced and did yoga because my body wanted to move and stretch and feel itself.

Almost as if my body and I were finally communicating with me on a level that needs no guessing on my part. It’s intrinsic.

These Moments

It is in the moments that I make peace with sweeping instead of cursing all of the clutter that keeps me from moving forward with my life because my house never gets all the way clean…

It is in the moments that peace can be found in the everyday tasks of living, no matter how repetitive or mundane, that I find the the wisdom to address and inspire consciousness…

To accept all aspects of the journey that my soul travels in these clothes.

Scrubbing, mowing, sweeping, stirring; the veil between the oneness and the illusion can be lifted, suspending need and necessity, and just elapsing as a moment should, with no hurry or mention.

Boldly Giving

One of our biggest challenges is giving. For people whose lives are spent immersed in the scarcity mentality, driven by a system that perpetuates wealth, greed and competition to the exclusion of all else,  it can be difficult to pry ourselves out from under the weight of so many oppressive thought forms. We often  find ourselves automatically reverting to selfishness, or at least self important activities and emotions.

Giving without expectation represents a letting go of the limiting social conduits that we have traversed throughout the generations. Giving, when done for its own sake rather than in response or under condition, offers an intrinsic reward in the knowing  that you made another persons life  a better place.

What if we saw every aspect of our lives as an opportunity to give of ourselves through our loving energy and allowance of the perfection of the moment?

So what if we can’t afford to give money!  At least we can send our open heart and extend to others the ‘vibrational respect’ afforded to any fellow soul traveler; another body with  the same one-ness and divinity as the source from which we stem as well. Money is the least that we can give, when we think how priceless unconditional love can be.

We can become more aware of the fine line that we walk in the moment. That line represents the shift in awareness from reacting to living, from submitting to giving; offering up our experience with gratitude to the collective human psyche and to the universal source of All.

Our skills are our gifts. Our dreams are our gifts. Our entire life can be seen as a beautiful and expansive gift to humanity, complete and perfect in its own right regardless of perceived status, possession, notoriety or anything else.

It’s time to put it all into proper perspective and use the gifts that we have available within us to uplift and inspire action and thought in others not by force, but by example. As we do this, our gifts will become even more valuable as our depth and perception of what it means to give will be heightened and our awareness will expand.

We can strive to experience our life, in word and in deed, the things that we call work and most importantly our intention to create as our personal gifts to the world that we live in. 

Without the pain; without the darkness and the heartache, the splendor of unconditional love would never be known. Those who would destroy the efforts of others are teachers in our lives, uniting those of us who would take a stand against their tyranny, empowering us to join forces for the highest good.

When we  find acceptance in our challenges at least, if not joy, we begin to balance the tremendous energies that are within us and radiate our gifts even more.

Understanding that our individual contributions to humanity, no matter howgreat or diminutive, are but cosmic particles of the overall big picture that is Source returning unto itself, we can cut ourselves some slack, realize that it isn’t coming out on top that we need to be focusing on… but we also need the understanding that since we are here and we have the capacity for higher thought and action, it is really our cosmic as well as karmic birthright to at least evolve in the ways that we can do so.

Giving each moment in full awareness that something important is coming from them, even though we cannot always see it, we are growing through our own innate wisdom.  Competition and scarcity only exists if we allow it. When we realize ouor perfect place at the forefront of thought and consciousness, we see the wealth of all.

When we let go of the need to compete or compare, as well as to control, and instead simply and deliberately share our gifts with humanity in all of the various ways that we are able, we see even more clearly the effect that our intention has upon our circumstances.

Participation in this world comes much easier when one is boldly giving, rather than meekly submitting to life in all of its moments.

MMS…A New and Hopeful Discovery!

I’ve just stumbled across something in the last couple of days that has me excited because of the implications that are inherent in the adoption of this product into our lives, if it works the way that it is reported to. The information is telling, and it is inherently a push in the right direction when it comes to taking back our personal power over health and wellness, despite attempts at big government and groups like Monsanto and the FDA who undermine our freedom of choice supposedly in the interest of our safety, even though they poison us any chance that they get!

And while I know there are all kinds of people out there pawning off their decoctions and potions on others, whether they work or not, that we have to be skeptical. There is no reason, at this point, to get overly worked up about it, but the possibilities alone are staggering.

MMS…it stands for Miracle Mineral Solution. The components that make up MMS  have been used in water purification and other manufacturing processes for at least70 years. One man of insight and intelligence discovered a way to eradicate malaria from the human body. Bear in mind that Malaria, which is spread by mosquitos,  kills more humans than any other pathogen on our planet.

The person responsible for this discovery came up with a cheap and easy protocol to literally implode and flush out all kinds of pathogens such as cancer, hepatitis, the  swine flu, Lyme disease, heavy metals, such as mercury,  aluminum, arsenic and flouride, heavy metals of all kinds…whatever is not supposed to be in our system…any kind of pathogens, effortlessly transported out of our system with the help of this chemical process that turns a 28% solution of sodium Chlorite and distilled water into chlorine dioxide in our system via a simple activation process. The results are astounding and speak for themselves. I urge you to at least inform yourself of this natural and affordable means of body cleansing and purification…

Miracle Mineral Solution

Appetite for Bullshit

Difficult is the path of joy and the allowance of our highest good, when from every angle and at every turn we are being lied to, duped and controlled by the powers that be; powers that are telling us that our world is coming to an end and that only by trusting in even bigger and more powerful forces of government will we be spared.

I’m a happy person. I’m a joyous soul. I love the breath and the life that courses through this body, and I respect and appreciate the ways in which I can come to be even more awakened and whole.

Because of my personal bent towards freedom and joy, I have a hard time accepting the idea that only through subjugating myself under the New World Order will my safety be assured. Each day we are being fed more lies, and each day the corruption and the deceit advance their position and with it, they further their wretched aims, which seem to be global domination.

Has it really come to this?  It seems ludicrous, the things that we are seeing happen right before our eyes. Our freedoms are being systematically withdrawn, to the point where we are now being faced with frightening possibilities…  such as mandatory forced vaccinations and suspension of rights because of the ’swine flu’ pandemic that is not even threatening us at this point, or  being labeled terrorists and carted off to concentration camps because we oppose their aims; or  having our Miranda rights revoked, or the  right to choose vitamins and supplements which is being  severely limited.

Freedom seeker that I am, I  resent the power plays and the false media explosions that herd us all into a scared, dark corner, waiting for the ‘big guys’ to come in and do their job in the name of our safety and protection.

To those who would come in and take away our freedom and our choice, I say  FUCK YOU.  It’s difficult to stay positive when we find ourselves confined, controlled, lied to, poisoned and brainwashed.

Now is a good time to refuse the future that they would have us passively accept. Now is the time to remember how many of us there are.

Do we give ourselves to the New World Order and hope that it all works out? Or do we rally together and decide that they’ve dished out enough bullshit to fill our plates for generations to come, and not only does it smell bad, but it tastes worse. I don’t have an appetite for bullshit, and I choose not to eat it.

Most of my posts focus on the joy and the heart and the beauty and the love that is inherent in our lives.  But with so much opposition facing us right now, in the way of our civil liberties not only being attacked and weakened, but being absolutely stripped, it’s difficult to stay focused on the joy.

Still, in my heart I know that true freedom is not something that we are given by a group of elected officials or stripped of by those very same officials turned dictatorial. We are born free spirits in a material world that places limitations on us from the get go.  Whether or not we are empowered by our innate freedoms enough to stand up and express it remains to be seen.

Savor

It came around. The personal grasp that I have been missing came back around just moments ago as I was standing with a sense of gratitude, petting nibbles, my 18 year old cat. I began thinking about how much love I have for her frail, furry frame. “I” became “we” as our essence merged into the one divine essence. Our path together has been but a flicker. “I” realized in a moment of awakening the great truth, internalizing it much deeper than ever. We hear it all the time…It doesn’t seem like such a great or profound secret, but I think it is a great secret…the greatest secret and perhaps the only true human secret. But the secret has been hidden right in front of us, or perhaps within us, this entire time… We are all connected and we are all one…of course. I’ve ‘known’ it all my life and preached it for the last twenty years.

In meditation the lines have melted and I have seen. In trance and in trips, I have experienced bliss, peace and timelessness. Today the perspective continued to widen. The “I” really is only there to distinguish our persona from the rest of the world that we create. It’s such an intense knowing now. “I” exist only so that I could have this very realization and carry it forward to play this amazing game where my task is to observe how this realization becomes more prevalent as more and more of our persona’s remember this secret and actually commit to move forward with the awakening process…our awakening process….the process of divinity imagining itself.

“I” can gently remind all of the other characters of the universal fact that not only is this secret really true, it is also really powerful.  People often hear something over and over and just assume it to be true without actually feeling and experiencing the truth of it. To fully understand, we must submit to allowing the realization to open further. It’s like unconscious consciousness. I can’t make anybody feel it, though.

I can live my ‘life’ here with much understanding and have a full on awakening experience from this moment forward, living in gratitude that I am here with eyes to see and committing to myself that for as long as I do exist in this form, I will appreciate and view worthy of love and growth the spirit that flows through these veins and meridians. But just as importantly as the gratitude which I give to myself, I extend that gratitude outwards, to touch each and every being that exists or has ever existed. All of my personal musings can serve more fully towards being a source of awakening for others. Same goes for everyone. Ultimately, especially right now, at this incredible time in history, there needs to be a focused effort to reawaken and to gently reacquaint people to the knowledge that right now is the eternal now, and only separated from everything else that has ever or will ever exist by…by what? no-thing-ness? Divine essence? This moment is ALL moments. There is no division. SAVOR!

Big Picture

The lens of reality looks different through each pair of eyes and each beating heart that is infused with the life to sustain it.  Humans are so vast and varied in our methodologies, in our approaches to life and in our values, sometimes clinging so tightly to them that we cut off the circulation of our energies until we no longer really feel anything anymore. We just get bumped around from one experience to another, judging each and every one of them.

Our source has gone missing. Our source has become a picture or a scripture. There are so many people who take it upon themselves to judge and criticise themselves and others, out of lack of respect for other’s experience or their own, to worry and to complain about where they find themselves, despondent, because they forgot, somewhere along the line, the they are IT.

We are all IT.

Telling the story of who I am requires that I first recognize that I AM source, as are you; as is all. I don’t walk around chanting all day with beads or meditate on my divinity (well, at least not every day), but I do have a general understanding that we are ultimately the conscious expression of the energy that is driving the Universe in each moment.

Bam…We’re here just like that, wave packets flickering in and out of existence again and again, yet appearing to be solid, separated individuals…

…the luckiest possible expression of source energy.

I mean, how much ‘knowingness’ does a comet have? While a nebula is awesome in scope and beautiful to look at in photos on APOD, how consciously is a nebula able to alter the course of it’s direction or change into something else entirely? It is Universal energy but it is not conscious in the way that humans are conscious, so there’s the difference.

We are creators of our experience, in each moment, no matter what reality we may be viewing from the personality that we have molded and shaped to construct it.

Scorpio Moon

I feel a sense of impending intensity, as if some breakthrough should be occurring. I feel as if there is something on the horizon of today that will serve me well throughout my life. It need not be a huge discovery, but more of a heightened understanding of something that I already know, along with the next step to take to continue gaining deeper awareness of it. Perhaps writing is the key here, as the moon in Scorpio is helping me to tune into my emotions, and writing them down is a sure way for me to reinforce them.

I’m trying to convince myself that I need to write some articles today, but it is not in my heart to accomplish that task just yet. Maybe before the night is over I can manage five to ten short,  articles so at least I can rack up 50-100 dollars for the day, but I’m beginning to realize that when the time is right for me to write, whether it is for money or for understanding, opening myself to allow what wants to emerge to do so is the best way for me to stay in flow.

I have to have faith that Spirit is telling me what I need to know, and rather than my mental chatter trying to convince me that writing about self storage is the most important thing for me to do on any given day becasue of the money that it brings me, living in flow means going with what spirit says. It is not so much procrastinating as it is understanding that if I write when I don’t feel the words, the writing will not be as good, and I will be going against my heart in matters of money.

To truly be able to experience abundance, I  must get in touch with my self on all levels, and that includes my thoughts and expectations that are centered around making money. Abundance can and should be effortless, and in my life, the opportunities to make money are there, all around me. When I work from my heart, with gratitude and openness, the opportunities continue. Yes, there will be deadlines to meet, and schedules to attend to that are not my own.

Not allowing other people’s agenda’s to override my own, listening with acuity to the wisdom that speaks through me, I can live my life with intention. If a deadline seems too restrictive, I can choose another job. If the pressure seems too overbearing, no one but my own mind is forcing me to comply with it. It is all a choice, and I’m making it in each moment.

Perhaps there will be some paid work done today, as the words are flowing nicely. More important, though, is that the words come when it feels good for them to come, so my work is truly more of a joy than an obligation that the external world requires that I uphold. This is my realization today, with the Scorpio moon guiding me down into my thoughts. This is the understanding that I feel I was meant to uncover. I have glimpsed this understanding before, but not fully greasped it’s importance.

Today is, indeed, a special moment, because I have given myself permission to seek the wisdom of Spirit in all matters, even those that, only yesterday, felt as if they were disconnected from source. I know that everything, in it’s essence, is connected to source and knowing. Why should any aspect of my life, or any ones life, be any different? They are not. Tracing the steps back to source, in each moment, whether through work, attention to detail, argument, relationship, sorrow, regret, or whatever we happen to be wallowing in at the time, is the key to unraveling the web of illusion that we reside in.

Once again, the blessed moon has assisted me in awakening to the matters of the heart, where everything is connected.

strong to the core

I’ve begun something new. It came to me last week in a flash of insight that was brought about by the physical exercise, yoga and stretching that I have been regularly engaging in for the last few weeks.

My insight was that I respond best, and my body responds best, when I engage in regular physical activity of some kind. Not very insightful, I know…but sometimes these things just have to come up and slap me around a bit before I take notice of them.

So, I’d been doing a lot of stretching, and what I call posturing. It basically consists of me moving my body any way that feels like a stretch, and a good one.  As long as it pushes me. Sometimes it’s a yoga posture, or a tried and true exercise, and sometimes not. So I find myself in these quite seductive, and very flexible positions when I’m feeling the urge to stretch.

A few times while doing so, I had been wondering what kind of exercise my routine would most closely resemble, and two days later I got an invitation for a belly dancing class taught by a girl that I know, Kandi Grossman at Mood Belly Dance Studio.

I went on Google, looked at an amazing belly dancer named Rachel Brice, and found myself engrossed in a beautiful art form that focuses upon isolating the individual muscles of the body, gaining ultimate control over each one, and moving the body in a way that promotes strength, balance and femininity all in a magnificent display of sensuality and rhythm.

The movements were so fluid, so graceful, that I instinctively knew that this was a class that I could pursue. And so, with my usual fervor upon a new insight or self discovery, I acted upon it. Last night was my first class, and I would imagine the first of many to come.

We basically did many of the moves and positions that I typically do, with a lot of balancing on the toes and something new to me, paying attention to my glutes for extended periods of time. I had never actually tried to isolate them before last night.

I’m sore as a result, but it’s a soreness that I appreciate, because it tells me that I have stumbled upon something that my body was crying out to find…an outlet for my stored physical energy to be expended and freely strengthened.

Remembering that movement really is a beautiful and liberating experience, for me and for everyone, has been a nice change. I tend to be way too mentally preoccupied to stop what I am doing and ground into my core physical body. That’s what the classes will assist me in doing. Plus, the isolation of muscles seem really interesting and holistic, at least from my point of view.

I’ve never been successful at going to the gym for more than a couple of months at a time. Perhaps these dance classes, being in a woman centered studio, very kid friendly, accentuating the core values of what it means to be empowered, sexual, alive and female, will trigger something more than just good health.

I’m hoping that it deepens my path of transformation by reminding me of all of the ways in which the feminine principle and my own life, deserve celebration and respect, from myself and from others.